Dream

1. To see sprinklers in your dream, indicates enlightenment. You have been able to shed some light on a situation or relationship. It also represents rejuvenation and cleansing. Those emotional wounds are beginning to heal.
2. To see a pole in your dream, represents security and stability. You always have something or someone you can lean on. The dream may also be a phallic symbol.
3. To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success.
4. To see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are taking on a new identify and developing new strengths. You are trying to be more emotionally mature about things.
5. To see green grass in your dream, suggests that there is a part of yourself that you can always rely on.
6. White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.
7. To dream that you are walking on a sidewalk, represents your steady progress and direction in life. You may be moving on to new walks of life.
8. To dream that you are running with others, signifies festive and prosperous times.

Half Full

"And I-I, I wanna be you lover baby
I wanna be your girl
Blow a kiss and change the world, yeah"
I care way too much about you/this/us
to let my worries interfere.

Happy Thanksgiving.
Things around here are changing. I can't wait to see the outcome of it all.
Black Friday, work from 4pm-12am. Nervous.
New Moon was hilarious, so glad we didn't pay to see it.
Xoxo

Dream

1.To dream that a computer has a virus or has crashed, suggests that something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.
2.To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. Alternatively, the dream refers to drastic changes that are happening in your life. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits.
3.To dream that your ex-boyfriend is giving you advice about your current relationship, suggests that you unconscious is telling you not to repeat the same mistakes that you had made with this ex-boyfriend
4.To dream that you are in Paris, symbolizes your need for romance and passion. It also suggests that you are a person of distinction. You own personal experiences and knowledge of Paris will supercede the suggested interpretation here.

Yup, they all sound about right...

Despite The Lasts:

I got a job today at Vans today & I got my license last Monday.
There is a really good possibility I am working until 3 in the morning on Black Friday.
Co0o0o0o0oL!

I'm tired.

Lay Down and Wait Like an Animal

My hopes are getting way too high way too fast.
I "hope" I'm not setting myself up just to be hurt.

In a way, I guess you can say I built up a suit of armor around my heart.
&
In a way, I guess you can say you kind of broke through my suit of armor.

I haven't let anyone in since...Well it's been forever,
& to be honest, I'm really scared.
Especially since we are in the situation we are in. I wish when I say everything is going to be perfect I can actually have confidence in what I am saying. I've been feeling really down lately, but just because I miss you so much. I'm tired of missing you, I'm tired of waiting.
Sounds stupid, but I need you here to know everything is going to be alright. I try and keep myself busy, to not think of you, but even the most ridiculous things remind me of you. I try not to talk to you as much, so I wont be so attached, but it only makes me miss you more. My chain is getting shorter, but I just want you home already.

You Did Not Press The Replay Button,

So do Not compare me.

Your Hand In Mine

You remember that feeling you got when you're a little kid waking up on Christmas morning?
Well I cant help but feel like that every morning lately. It's the best. Knowing that each morning I wake up is one day closer to you coming home. The anticipation is killing me. Ugh! :D I cannot wait!
I know it's silly to feel this way about someone so soon & far away, but I can't help it. Everything just feels so right. I've never met a guy who has made me this happy before. It's so perfect, sometimes even confuses me, I have to rethink to myself, "is this even real?". After five years of knowing you, I never really got to "know" you, but I feel so lucky to be experiencing it now. I really don't think any other time would have been right.

So Thank You Cory William, for making me smile all of the time. You fill in the spaces.
XoXo
<3

Something (120)

Waiting for our food for 2 hours was the best! Pfft...
Fuck that dimmed lighting, overpriced restraunt. We got full off of chips and they stabbed the inside of our stummies!

Ugh

^^^ We're so lame! haha, But oh how i love them!

Pew, I'm so bored. It's Friday, everyone's drunk except me. I should have just went with TriStan to Dlo's tonight.
Cleaning my room and listening to Wu-Tang.

Phock.

I Know I Don't Say It Enough

But I truly am THANKFUL for my best friends, I don't know what I would do without you.
So
Thank You Lauren

Thank You Josue

Thank You Emilio


For always being there for when I need(ed) you guys the most. You are my family & I will never forget the memories we had and the memories that we haven't made yet.

I love you guys<3
xoxo

Babe of The Day: 5

Ugh I don't know why I think he's attractive, I'm a weirdo!

Cheesy? I Don't Care

You do something to me
that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line
if I said, I miss you?

To know that you feel the same
as I do is a three-fold Utopian dream.

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
And, I miss You.


What is this?! I feel so different in the best way possible.

Spiritualized

Don't know that band? Look them up. NOW.

More Than Words

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets harder

I haven't been this content with my life in a while. I'm so happy I found someone so special, understanding and respectful, & not to mention completely handsome. I couldn't ask for more. I've been smiling non-stop and get butterflies every time I hear from him. The only downfall is the distance between us. But that can only make us stronger right? Oh, I can't wait to see whats in store for December! Come home already babez, I miss you oh so much! I could write so much more, but I don't want to make a fool out of myself.
<33
xoxo

Azn Babiez

Dedicated to Davey:
Agagahahah! These are the best, when we get some mulah, I swear we will adopt one. ha

Paige, Jade & Kiana

^The best one^

http://www.aznbabyz.com/

For Stevie Wonder's Eyes Only

I feel good. I did what I needed to do for a long time. I knew he wouldn't have the balls to immediately respond. What a fucking joke.

This isn't a game but:
I WIN.

Phock

I want all of my piercings back. My septum (^^^), my lip, my gauges, my thing that I'm not even sure what it's called.
I want real tattoos other than my little at home ones. They don't fucking count.

I'm thirsty, BITCHES!

Halloweenie!

Just a few highlights of this weekend. Halloween is and always will be my favorite holiday. As always I'm super indecisive about my costume. So i ended up being Alice In Wonderland and Lauren was a Bear! The night before Lauren and I went and hung out with Jon and Stephanie. Went to a party in Chino with 400+ people which gotten broken up really fast obviously. Chopper came, followed by the pigs. So we ended up going to Nick's house and partied there. Had a few shots and Lauren was drunk as fuck. As always Jon gives the best light shows, ha. Since she couldn't drive, I drove Lauren to In-N-Out at 1am. Ha she ate it in about five minutes! Woke up so shitty the next morning. hahaha
Finally it was Halloween! Thank goodness. Before we knew it, it was already 3pm. I stopped being lazy and carved my pumpkin. I wanted it to be Hello Kitty. Super hard to figure out but I actually ended up doing it. Yay!

We started getting ready and turns out we didn't have a camera so we used film. Drone, Drone, Drone. Unfortunately no good pictures, because we used my phone.


Oh well, hopefully soon. So anyways, we met up with Jon and Stephanie again then Mil showed up. We went to Dom's house. The night started out slow but as soon as I walked in I saw Kenny and he handed me a beer. One obviously wasn't enough, so i had a few more and started feeling good. I ran into so many of my old friends it was the best. Dlo's band ended up playing and I ended up gettin battle wounds from the pit I wasn't even in. ha Some dewd 2steppin his brainz out comes and punches some girl while my arm is being burnt with a cigarette. It's cool cuz he was a babe and apologized, tahah.

After that, I just danced and caught up with David, Kenny, Dlo. Saw Seth too, & yes "I" did say hi. As I was making my rounds saying hi to everyone time flew by and next thing I knew there was only a few people left. So we dicided to head out. On the way home Mil's tail light was out and he was drunk, so of course there was a checkpoint on the way home, right? Again Lauren was too drunk to drive (hahah) but it's okay, I drive better drunk, I dunno why! All in all, It was a good two nights. I cant wait for next year.

Google: 2

Babe of The Day: 4

I will one day marry Brandon. He's like an orgasm to my eyesight.

xoxo